Stronger urges…and the lack of Abience

This recently happened to my younger sister. She just couldn’t sleep without putting her point across. It bothered her so much that some idiot had put a certain post and he needed to be set straight.

I wanted to intervene and tell her to let go, it will still be there tomorrow. But just before I was about to speak, I remembered that I’ve been in her shoes before. I just wouldn’t let it go. There was no way I was going to sleep peacefully without letting the thoughts that had started to hunt me laid to rest. You can’t help but obsess, and like a drug addict the craving is so hard and you can only be relieved once you’ve had your take.

And when that moment arrives where you’ve said it all and about to enter your last full stop, a sense of pride starts setting in.

There!!” you say with such satisfaction and pride.

You have after-all, just saved society from being infected by idiocy.


Happy Weekend!!!


When it finally happens, it happens!

When everything you have hoped for comes together and you just want to explode into this giant million confetti.

After being devastated about one of my favourite artist coming to town and I had no means of seeing him. I decided to take the matters to another level – Entering Competitions. Get this, I’ve never won any competition so this was already a risk on its own but I told myself that I was going to give it my absolute ALL. I searched for every site giving about tickets to see Paolo Nutini’s show and entered each competition with my entire being, soul and heart. I had to win. Losing was no option. I sent emails, wrote on Facebook walls and made comments.

I was ecstatic that one of the sites I always frequent, Bizcommunity also hosted a competition to win tickets. I did by absolute best, believed with all my might and left it all unto the hands of the universe.


A day later, I made it. I won!!

I’m about to get ready for the concert now. Totally Incredibly out-of-this-world EXCITED!!!!

It was a bright light at the end of that tunnel ~ (P.N)

My fingers a trembling as I write this.

I just won tickets to see Paolo Nutini!!!

I’m just too excited to type….

Thank you Biz Lounge: Entertainment !! 😀

Detailed post to follow later..

The Silver lining – could this be it? (P.N)

There might just be light at the end of the tunnel that I’m in. Or could it be a train coming towards me, ready to hit me with more disappointment?

This is a follow up to my post on Paolo Nutini’s concert coming up this week. So the update is that I’m luckily not working on the 19th March, which means that I can still catch his second day performance but now the problem is getting the actual ticket.

Is it just my experience or do the people who arrange concert dates make sure they do so a week before your payday, that way you’re a loser if you’re not so good at saving like me and this is just to spite you so you learn a lesson to finally stop being so reckless with your money? I know they probably announce way in advance but sadly the news never reach every eye:/

So this is my situation right now. I’m available to go but have no financial means to get there.

“Don’t despair child, the road is not over yet.” says the little voice inside of me, in the softest of all tones yet so warm I had an instant light bulb moment.

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I don’t know what it is but my mind seems to be on a slow mode recently. It’s like the mind and soul are not living in the same dimension.

I mean I have no idea why I only thought of this now.

So the idea is to search all sites that are giving away Paolo Nutini’s concert tickets. It’s 8pm on a Sunday and I only thought of this now after having found out on the 11th. My goodness!!

I am now following every possible instruction needed for me to win those tickets.

I’M NOT EATING. I’M NOT DRINKING. I’M NOT SLEEPING. I’M NOT EVEN BLINKING. Hey, I’m even holding my breath as I type this. Okay, maybe not. I do afterall need to be alive to be part of this amazing experience I so badly seek.

This is the silver lining, so lets see where it takes me.

I’m leaving it all up to the universe now.

Fingers crossed!

The Sweet Surprise

When my boyfriend heard about my heartbreak on me finding out that I will be missing Paolo Nutini’s concert because of finding out about it so late. He surprised me with something that had not crossed my mind even by a single second.

He had read the post I published at dawn on Saturday (though might show as published yesterday due to technical issues). He just knew just how to melt my heart, making me all better about the whole ordeal.

So on Saturday afternoon as we headed on our adventures in the city, he put on the radio and what my ears heard just swept me off my feet. My heart just  melted and I wanted to cry, scream, kiss him endlessly and just hug him so tightly.

We had never listened to Paolo Nutini in his car before and despite our music taste which is not always similar, he took it upon himself to make me a mix cd of all Paolo’s albums (as I didn’t have all the albums). I was just blown away. The thought, time and effort of him doing all of that.

I just loved him even more for being so incredible. He just gets me and knew how to fill that void of disappointment. I felt so much at that moment and didn’t know how to express it. He is my person.

Thank you baby.

I love you madly!

When my Wednesday became a Numbsday

Do you ever get this nudging feeling that sort of involuntary controls your body and mind, then you find yourself at a place or in a position you had not thought about the previous night before you went to bed? More like a new experience that just embraces your life when you least expected and you’re not sure how to best react. This experience letting you discover something you have missed or if the stars are on your side, you still have an opportunity to be part of. Well the heavens are not on my side this time.

And all I keep hearing are the voices repeating the same question:

Q: “How could I have not known?”

And the other answers:

A: “Simple, it’s your own fault.”

I’m still screaming inside. A little more like this guy.

Okay maybe I’m being a little too dramatic here. I’ll get to the point. One beautiful evening about 8 years ago I was working night shift and to help speed up the hours of the night especially on less busy periods I needed some entertainment. So I started searching the net for sites with live streaming as I badly needed entertainment. And no, not the kind of entertainment you may be thinking about;) hahaha.

I finally found the site that was not blocked by IT. It was one of those sites that has a top music hit list. So I clicked on Paolo Nutini – New shoes and just loved what I heard. It instantly became my favorite song, so much so that I played it repeatedly and even got the lyrics to sing along. It was a perfect match.

Do you ever listen to a song for the very first time and you just completely love it? It’s as though he had you in his mind as he drafted the song, word by word, every tune and knew that once it reaches your ears you will utterly and completely love it. After all it was written just for YOU! A few weeks later I bought the album and was just crazy about Paolo.

I became infatuated in a way that I saved every cool picture of him that I could find on the internet as my wallpaper and posters. I loved Paolo Nutini! Don’t be judging me, I’m sure you’ve done something similar too!?! haha

So on Wednesday morning when I woke up, feeling joyful without a clue on what will hit me an hour later. I first finished watching a few scenes of John Wick that I had missed the previous night and then went on the internet. I checked social media sites, then onto Googling ideas in celebrating my boyfriend’s birthday and events around the city. I kept clicking away and eventually found myself in a site that got me screaming, upset and just numb.

I discovered that my very own Paolo Nutini will be performing next week just 5km to where I stay and I had no clue. And to top it all up, I am working on the days. I was screwed so badly by the universe. How could I have missed this?! Paulo If only I had known, I would have planned better. The thing about me is that I’m very choosy when it comes to artists I’d love to see perform. Let’s face it not all musicians give a good performance. It’s as though their glory fades away the minute they walk out of the studio. So Paolo Nutini was on my exception list.

You can just imagine the disappointment in me. Regretting not going on internet as often as I used to before, not having the Cape town’s event page on Facebook, not following Paolo on twitter (or being on twitter as much as I used to in the past) and just letting things pass me by.

Lesson’s learned: 

  1. I need to start being on top of my game and not let the things I enjoy most pass me by despite the busyness of my life.
  2. Be more present on social media and keeping up to date with current affairs/latest entertainment news (not celebrity gossip or upsetting politics)
  3. Repeat #1

And maybe, like Paolo’s song –  I just need to put some new shoes on and everything will be right.